Sunday, July 18, 2010

Blog Hiatus

You may have noticed that I haven't been writing much...Summer is here in full swing and with some very active boys living under the same roof as me, we are pretty busy. Not to mention that I've had jury duty, a nasty ear infection that laid me out for a solid week, vacation Bible school, and I got a new job!
As I was reading my previous posts to see what I had been talking about, I realized that my dreaming post was a little depressing. I didn't mean it to be, and in fact I do have a lot of dreams - just not the huge, life culminating in one moment type of dreams like climbing Everest.
My dreams are more of the everyday, living life variety. I think that these dreams are sometimes harder to sustain over the long run, because they are not necessarily recognized as dreams. The day in and day out of becoming a better person, a better mother.
Becoming the person God created me to be.
Using my creativity.
Learning to love with my whole heart.
Making a beautiful, peaceful home.
Training my boys to become strong, men of God with integrity.
Raising chickens.
Growing food.
Eating wonderful homemade meals.
Loving my children. Laughing everyday.
Bringing joy to my life and my kids lives.
Deepening my friendships and developing new, creative and enduring relationships.
Opening myself to possibility of finding someone else to share my life with.
Completely giving my life over to God.
Resting in His peace.
Keeping my house clean for more than 15 minutes. (Okay, this may be a pipe dream until the boys are say 30...)
Selling my creations of furniture, paintings, crafts....inspiration of the day.
In other words, I have LOTS of dreams. Some big. Some small. Some not yet spoken. Some I'm not even aware of yet. But, it's important to dream. It's important for my soul. It's important for my daily existence. Even though sometimes the dreaming process might be a little scary - it's important to dream dreams. If I only allow myself to hope for things that I can easily accomplish, where is the mystery, excitement, striving? Hope is critical for my survival.
"But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." - Isaiah 40:31

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